Today marks twelve years that you left this earth. They say time heals all wounds, but that’s not true. Some wounds can never heal. I woke up this morning feeling as though it was just yesterday that I had that terrible knock on my door just after midnight.
I remember watching the news the day before and feeling so sorry for the families of those involved in that terrible accident on I-20. I just couldn’t imagine the devastation and heart break they must be feeling. It was a “Breaking News” story, so they covered it most all day. I was glued to the TV, not knowing that the family I was feeling so heart broken for was my own family. The knock on my door that night changed my life forever. Sometimes I still catch myself waiting for you to come home from work and call me up and say, “Let’s go fishing.”
There is not a day that goes by when I don’t have thoughts of you. So many little things that triggers a memory of you. And I cherish each one of those memories. Sometimes my job can even trigger the worst emotions. I sat yesterday with tears in my eyes as I listened to a caller as she begged for help because her mother wasn’t breathing. The cries and pleading for the ambulance to hurry up as she tries to start CPR. Calls like that can stir so many emotions in me because I know first hand how the caller feels. I try real hard to keep my emotions in tact when I’m at work, and most of the time I do pretty good with it. Some days it’s harder to do especially with the anniversary of your death so close.
So, what would we be doing today if you were still here? How many more fishing trips would we have taken? Probably too many to count.
You were so excited about your upcoming retirement. You would have been 62 years old in just a few more days and we were already planning a trip to Florida to go see Uncle Wayne and do some fishing. You were so excited to load up in that old motor home and hit the road. I was making plans to take my vacation from work. We were going on an adventure!
Daddy, I miss you terribly. There is not a day that goes by that I don’t think of you. I never realized just how much you and Mama meant to me. You both took a huge piece of me with you when you left. But I will see you again. So until that time comes, I will cherish the memories that you gave me, and continue to love you more with each day.
I love you Daddy,
And Happy Upcoming Birthday.